Friday, 16 October 2009

New Me?

Ok I am an 18 year old without a job, have not alot going for me, considering all of my friends have either gone off to uni, are taking a gap year or have completed their A Levels (or college courses). Me? I dropped out of sixth form, and college. So yay, I am a drop out. But rather then whine and moan about it, I'm going to do something about it. I hate my life at the moment (and at this moment i play hate my life by theory of a deadman - awesome song XD) but I'm trying not to get so worked up about it because I can face the fact that it's my fault so I can sort it out. I simply have to do the following 5 things.

1) Get a full time job. I don't like the fact that I am living on jobseekers allowance and have nothing to do all the time except look for job vacancies ¬¬

2)(Once Fulltime Job is obtained) Save money. I tend to be a fuckwit that loves to spend on pointless things. Just for the sake of having money. :(

3)Stop being a bitch. Okay. Me thinks this will be the hardest objective purely for the fact that I do this without even realising. I mean, hey, I can't help it if some girl has a fat arse. I'm just pointing it out, right? But nooo. I'd hate it if someone did this to me. I'll just try to be positive rather then negative :)

Okay. I'm going to make this 3 things instead of 5 because it wouldnt be so realistic if I put more! But I shall keep whoever is reading posted on how I'm getting on, because I am going to keep this up. :)

Promise :)


For most 13 year old girls, all they want is -

a) To be popular
b) To have a boyfriend. Preferably the one all the girls like.

And I was no exception. The funny thing is, things don't change too much as you get older. Sure, us girls may not care so much about being popular. But the need to have a boyfriend is still there for alot of us. And I keep wondering why. Is it because they make us feel safe and wanted? Or simply because our best girl friends are getting into serious relationships and you are still going out getting with that random guy every once in a while?

I suppose I can't say too much about it as I have a boyfriend (only of a week and a bit so far, but going good :)) but if a guy ever shows you affection, no matter who it may be, most of the time you will succumb to it, simply to the fact you feel wanted.

There is nothing wrong with wanting a guy. But I do find that those people who sign up to dating agencies online or go out in the hopes of getting with someone are going about it the wrong way. If you and a guy are meant to be, it will happen on it's own accord so stop pushing. Why is it all women want to sign up for arseholes that are most likely going to hurt them? Let's face it, that is most likely what is going to happen.

It seems there isn't a point to me writing this, but i suppose it's just because I think us girls should be more independant without all that drama with guys. Some drama, sure :P But most of my life has been wasted on it, through all those 7 or 8 boyfriends.

Hopefully those 13 year olds will learn :)